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I'm enjoying every bits & pieces of my June Holidays and it feels so daymn good to wake up in the afternoon. I don't have to worry about rushing to work.. yea although it's only for a while and the next thing I know, I'm back to work next week (doing spring cleaning for 4/5 days). Shucks, I hate that so much! My mood for blogging is just so unpredictable like that, and tadaa, I've decided to bombard my blog with few updates. Just realised that I've been pretty occupied with the surroundings around me and I always tried my best not to think of all those inner thoughts. But I guess I'm just being unfair to myself - To be ignorant, and always run away from it. It just keeps on coming back and I'm out of ideas to seriously make it stop. The only thing that makes me stronger is to have a mindset of knowing that I'm not the only one who's having obstacles in life because the fact is, everyone does, isn't it? Just that the obstacles appear differently in our life. And oh, it's been such a long time since I last touched on the topic "Love", ha ha ha. I think I'm much more secretive (or I've always been that way, hmm) now. But I guess throughout the three years of singlehood, I've learned some things (can't possibly use the word 'alot' because I still have a long way to go.. Still 20, mind you). It's really okay if my time to settle down is nowhere to be seen since I've always have issues with r/s commitments. Yes, I do ever thought of having a long-term relationship but I guess the settling down part lies with me and I just need to have the strong feeling that I once had.. And then I can think of having a relationship. It may takes months.. years.. I don't know. I guess I'm just so hard to understand, so hard to please, so everything that you wouldn't want to know. And I need someone to analyse my extraordinarily-complex-personality well. That's the rarity here but.. we shall see.

I'm enjoying every bits & pieces of my June Holidays and it feels so daymn good to wake up in the afternoon. I don't have to worry about rushing to work.. yea although it's only for a while and the next thing I know, I'm back to work next week (doing spring cleaning for 4/5 days). Shucks, I hate that so much! My mood for blogging is just so unpredictable like that, and tadaa, I've decided to bombard my blog with few updates. Just realised that I've been pretty occupied with the surroundings around me and I always tried my best not to think of all those inner thoughts. But I guess I'm just being unfair to myself - To be ignorant, and always run away from it. It just keeps on coming back and I'm out of ideas to seriously make it stop. The only thing that makes me stronger is to have a mindset of knowing that I'm not the only one who's having obstacles in life because the fact is, everyone does, isn't it? Just that the obstacles appear differently in our life. And oh, it's been such a long time since I last touched on the topic "Love", ha ha ha. I think I'm much more secretive (or I've always been that way, hmm) now. But I guess throughout the three years of singlehood, I've learned some things (can't possibly use the word 'alot' because I still have a long way to go.. Still 20, mind you). It's really okay if my time to settle down is nowhere to be seen since I've always have issues with r/s commitments. Yes, I do ever thought of having a long-term relationship but I guess the settling down part lies with me and I just need to have the strong feeling that I once had.. And then I can think of having a relationship. It may takes months.. years.. I don't know. I guess I'm just so hard to understand, so hard to please, so everything that you wouldn't want to know. And I need someone to analyse my extraordinarily-complex-personality well. That's the rarity here but.. we shall see.